Friday, 26 September 2014

It's OK to say 'I'm Struggling.'


For the past few weeks I've not been feeling like me. I've been putting so much pressure on myself to make our house 'perfect' that I started to lose the fun in turning our house into a home. I've been constantly worrying that others in our group of houses are progressing more than we are. Everyday I would notice that they had put curtains up, they had done their gardens, they were painting rooms and it was draining, mentally and physically. The washing machine situation hasn't helped and I apologise now for my continued tweets to Currys but not having a washing machine for 6 weeks and having a brand new torn kitchen floor has just done my head in. It's silly things like not being able to pop my face cloths in the wash or wanting to wear something the next day and not being able to pop it in for a quick wash so it's ready. My parents have been stars and taking washing for us when they can but I feel awful sending them home with a bag of washing every week, so we've been trying to get by and do what we can by hand.

I've been so concerned that I've been neglecting my blog, but I didn't want to write a quick half arsed post just so that I could say I've done it. That's not me and that's not how I want my blog to be. I write because I love to write and share things with you all. And unfortunately if that means sometime I go a week without writing then that's how it is. I don't ever want my blog to feel like it's a chore.

I noticed when we went out with some friends last week that the 'black cloud' was starting to appear. I didn't really fancy going out, I felt like crap, I looked like crap and I just wanted to curl up and shut myself away. But I'm so pleased with how far I have come, I can now recognise when I'm starting to feel low and I can accept that it's OK to put my hands up and say 'I'm feeling really low.'

After doing this and getting off my chest everything that was stressing me out I feel so much better. So what if next door have planted some plants in their garden. So what if across the way have hung up some blinds and so what if I have to walk around in my onesie for the next week because we've run out of clean clothes!! It will all work itself out.

I've got a few blog posts drafted and ready to go up this weekend and next week so keep your eyes peeled :)
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  1. I wholeheartedly agree that it's ok to admit you're struggling- life is never a smooth ride unfortunately! I hope things settle for you soon- especially the washing machine, it's such a taken-for-granted thing usually.
    All the best,
    Jennifer x
    http://www.ginevrella.blogspot.co.uk

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  2. Keep blogging but make sure it doesn't become a chore haha :) I've just started Uni and I feel very overwhelmed, sometimes life is just like that.

    vvnightingale.blogspot.co.uk

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